My Ideal Child

November 19, 2010 at 9:15 pm (Baby on the Brain, Navel Gazing, TGF, Uncategorized) (, , , , )

This is not a wishlist. At least I don’t think of it that way. It’s more of an “I Hope That…” list for the child who is still pretty much a twinkle in his/her mothers’ eyes.

Yesterday during lunch my girlfriend and I were talking general timelines of when we thought we might start trying this whole insemination thing. Not that we’ve chosen a donor. Or even set up an initial consultation. I suppose those things will happen after the 1st of the year. It’s looking like it’s full steam ahead in the first quarter of 2011, though. Slightly queasy at the thought but excited, too. I don’t know whether I’d like a girl or a boy. Ideally, we’d have one of each but for now we’re concentrating on the “having the baby” part. I do think there are some character traits I’d like for our child to have, regardless of gender.

I’d love our child to be outgoing, not introverted to the point of a social disorder, like me. I’d like it if she learned to be open and empathetic like her other mother as well as somehow inherit my girlfriend’s work ethic and drive. I want her to speak 3 languages (English, Mandarin & Spanish) and be able to converse with her grandmother.

I don’t want our kids to have the same hang ups that my girlfriend and I do about weight and food. I want them to be healthy, active, and look to us for comfort, not chocolate or french fries. I’ve no idea how to accomplish this since I still go for the ice cream or any type of junk food when I’m sad, but that’s something I’ll work to get past.

I’m going to try not to be so opinionated, too. I know I’m judgmental and I’m sort of a prick about it but I don’t want our kids to think they can’t talk to me or that I’ll be closed-minded if they want to be, oh, I don’t know, straight or something. Ugh, I knew I should’ve started therapy a long time ago.

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100 Days

October 17, 2010 at 8:42 pm (Baby on the Brain, Randomness) (, , )

100 days ago I started working out with a dvd, doing cardio and weights 5-6 times a week for the first 45 days, tapering off to about 3-4 times a week since then. I also stopped eating fast food (there was one day when I had to have a bacon/egg/cheese biscuit from McD’s but that’s it) and started watching my calorie intake. I figure I now consume between 1200-1500 calories per day, mostly protein.

I started at 177 lbs. and now I’m down to 157.5 as of this morning. It’s a little faster than my goal of losing 1-1 1/2 lbs per week, but since I don’t really feel as if I’m suffering, I’ll take it. I don’t want to be fat anymore. I’m tired of being tired, outgrowing my “fat” clothes, and chafing in funny places while I’m working. I’m also finding that I’m more hormonally balanced when my diet and exercise routine is better, and I’ve had 3 consecutive “normal” periods. Which hardly ever happens.

I’m amused at the number of people who ask me, “what are you doing to lose weight?” Um, diet and exercise? There’s no quick fix for me. And I’d rather not do some scary diet, lose a heck of a lot of weight, and then have all this skin hanging around after. Ick. I figure if I’m going to have a baby, I’m going to have a hard enough time getting my body to bounce back as it is.

My goal right now is to lose another 10 lbs and keep that off for a while. Of course, my other goal is to have a baby in the next 12-18 months, so the weight thing may be pushed aside in favor of just being healthy enough to conceive and have a successful pregnancy. But I’m proud to have come this far and decided to mark this day with a post. Yay me.

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