What’s Different?

February 15, 2011 at 2:25 pm (Healthy...?) (, , , , , )

I stopped working out in November. I’d worked out consistently, at least 5 times a week, from July til then. I had muscles. Definition. A hint of a waist instead of straight down from my breasts to my hips. I liked the way I was looking. So did my girlfriend. So what happened? I got sick. Not working out became my evening habit instead of turning on the DVD and sweating for an hour. I also stopped writing down my calorie intake and when I didn’t immediately start gaining the weight back I thought it was all good. Fooled myself into believing I could still maintain my weight loss.

HAH! SO NOT! I gained 6 pounds from Thanksgiving to New Year’s. I tried to rationalize it but my scale doesn’t lie. It’s cruel and unyielding and tells me my body fat percentage has been creeping up in the past 6 weeks. Oh how I loathe stepping onto that thing in the morning. I even go so far as to think “skinny” thoughts and expel all my breath before allowing my feet to touch the offending and all-too-damaging-to-my-self-esteem piece of molded plastic. So while the actual weight gain hasn’t been horrendous, I’m losing muscle along with my turn back into a sloth.

And I’m thinking that my journey back to couch potato status has not gone unnoticed by my hormones. I barely had a period last month and this past week, when I should be experiencing things like huge boobs and weird cramps and general moodiness? Maybe some cramps. But not much else. So now I’m worried enough to start writing down my calorie intake and limiting the number of lemon bars making their way past my lips. I’ve been making an effort to eat healthier dinners (I worked last Thursday, Friday & Saturday so I know my diet sucked then. I also went out to dinner with friends Saturday night and didn’t eat well). New leaf, I tell you!

I’ve got to get back into the shape I was in 4 months ago. I bought new pants that I just got back from the tailor. I have nicer clothes than I’ve had in years waiting to be worn but I can’t seem to get my fatty arms into sleeves that fit not so long ago. And my shape was so…intriguing to my girlfriend. Yeah, definitely gotta make some changes around here.


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100 Days

October 17, 2010 at 8:42 pm (Baby on the Brain, Randomness) (, , )

100 days ago I started working out with a dvd, doing cardio and weights 5-6 times a week for the first 45 days, tapering off to about 3-4 times a week since then. I also stopped eating fast food (there was one day when I had to have a bacon/egg/cheese biscuit from McD’s but that’s it) and started watching my calorie intake. I figure I now consume between 1200-1500 calories per day, mostly protein.

I started at 177 lbs. and now I’m down to 157.5 as of this morning. It’s a little faster than my goal of losing 1-1 1/2 lbs per week, but since I don’t really feel as if I’m suffering, I’ll take it. I don’t want to be fat anymore. I’m tired of being tired, outgrowing my “fat” clothes, and chafing in funny places while I’m working. I’m also finding that I’m more hormonally balanced when my diet and exercise routine is better, and I’ve had 3 consecutive “normal” periods. Which hardly ever happens.

I’m amused at the number of people who ask me, “what are you doing to lose weight?” Um, diet and exercise? There’s no quick fix for me. And I’d rather not do some scary diet, lose a heck of a lot of weight, and then have all this skin hanging around after. Ick. I figure if I’m going to have a baby, I’m going to have a hard enough time getting my body to bounce back as it is.

My goal right now is to lose another 10 lbs and keep that off for a while. Of course, my other goal is to have a baby in the next 12-18 months, so the weight thing may be pushed aside in favor of just being healthy enough to conceive and have a successful pregnancy. But I’m proud to have come this far and decided to mark this day with a post. Yay me.

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